South Beach Diet Day 3 - Weakness

Today's South Beach Diet Tips:

* If your South Beach protein repertoire gets boring, create your own snack. Cottage cheese with sweet spices? Yes!

* I shamefully admit that I want people to shower my future hot body with compliments while I maintain a false sense of modesty.

And now, here are the details of my 3rd day on the South Beach Diet...

What I Weighed Today: 198 lbs. (8am)

I was at a total loss for dinner tonight so I sliced up a bunch of zucchini (length-wise), sprayed them with olive oil, sprinkled on salt, pepper, and fresh garlic and baked them on my grill pan. Sh*t was FA-BUH-LUCIOUS! Will have to remember to do that again. For protein I had cottage cheese with cinnamon, nutmeg, and Splenda. Yum. Then I was still hungry so I had a yogurt. Then I was still hungry so I had two string cheeses. Then later…I had another three string cheeses.

String cheese is a weakness for me. It's so incredibly delicious and fun to eat. Peeling each yummy string off, one by one. There are three brands that I like and I buy a bag of each every time I shop, and then I love to eat them in order of taste: Kraft first, Cow Pals second, Frigo last. In this order you don't interfere with the flavor of each. I think that the inventor of string cheese should receive a Nobel Prize. As should the inventor of toast and the inventor of the donut.

That was some rambling craziness I just wrote but the scary thing is that I think this way all the time. I think a lot (maybe too much) about everything. But especially food. My friends seem to think about food a lot, too, but maybe that's only when they are around me. Maybe I inspire that. I need to give myself credit, though, as I am not as bad as I used to be. But I am a little ashamed of the fact that from the minute I start a program, I am already planning what I want to indulge in when I end the diet.

The reason this makes me nervous is because I don’t want to be like Kirstie Alley. She lost 40 pounds on Jenny Craig, then the minute she stopped being their spokeswoman, she gained it all back. The world is being extremely cruel to her about it, too.

What I Ate Today:
Breakfast: 1 oz Low-Fat String Cheese, Starbucks Venti Skinny Latte (1/2 caff), Tomato w/ Fat-Free Mayo
Lunch: Chicken Caesar Salad
Snack: 2 oz Low-Fat String Cheese
Dinner: 5 oz Low-Fat String Cheese, Grilled Zucchini, Cottage Cheese and Yogurt
Snack: None

EXERCISE:
None

People don't understand all of the reasons that weight can come back. Even the person gaining it doesn’t always understand. Sometimes even when you understand the reason and acknowledge it, you still can't stop yourself from letting it happen.

I think my own personal craziness plays a part in my eternal fatness. I have a distinct fear of seeming like I’m trying to intentionally outshine people. I feel like it's okay to be a diva if you are flawed. Then you can tell people that you don’t think you are all that even when you do. I can say, "I don’t understand why people think I'm so great, look at my fat ass. I would trade my fill-in-the-blank for her ass any day." All the while I'm thinking, "I wouldn't want to be that dumb bitch for anything in the world." In the meantime, you seem humble and gracious. *giggle*

Like I said -- my own personal craziness.

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